When I was in college, journalist integrity and impartiality were drilled into my brain, day in and day out. And because of that, I honestly stopped caring who won or lost while I shot games in college. I'd root for outcomes occasionally, based on if I got a really nice sad or happy storytelling picture early on in the game.
But then I graduated, and began working for what I jokingly called "the dark side" during my fiery college journalism years. When you work with a team, or an organization day in and day out, all the sudden you are allowed to care. In fact, you should care. You would be crazy if you didn't start to care. And ever so slowly, the journalistic impartiality so ingrained in me began to fade.
I've been working with UK Athletics for about 3 years now, following UK hoops closely for those 3 years as well. And I can't lie, I root for them hard. I might not be sitting there clapping and cheering while I take pictures, but its happening inside my head. When their little intro video plays to pump them up before the game, I throw up an imaginary fist pump. And when they lose like they did last night, it breaks my heart for them.
And it's also kind of sad because I feel like in the immediate future, my pictures become kind of, well, dead. Especially coming off a history making win like the previous game at UT, where UK Hoops beat UT at home for the first time in 25 years. Those photos will be celebrated and looked at again and again. But no one wants to celebrate a loss, and now that its over, I just want to celebrate good pictures that don't have much of a life span anywhere else.
I mean after all, win or lose, "darkside" or "the force" (nerd alert....), for me it should be about making the best pictures I can every time.